Years of Heartbreak…

I want to start off by saying, this post is a hard one to write. So hard that it’s been weighing on me since I knew I opened the door. Opening the door has made realize I haven’t really dealt with it.

Heartbreak is the biggest reason I don’t open up to anyone. I won’t talk about a specific person because I don’t want to single anyone out. But if you are reading this and you know who you are……… being happy or learning to be happy without you has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done. If I’m being super honest I sometimes doubt if I’m ever really happy and I get mad at myself for that.

I fell in love with someone who didn’t love me the same way I loved them. They broke me down and ripped my heart to millions of pieces. As a naive teenager it felt like a hole, a hole of nothingness. Which made me feel as if I was useless.

I thought a lot was wrong with me….

I thought I was the problem….

I also thought I was never worthy of love…..

But I want to thank you…… I became independent. I became a boss. I became a fighter. I became stronger. I became a Godmother. I became a friend. I became alive again. Because I learned that I didn’t need you to feel loved, I needed to be reminded that God was who I needed.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. – 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

This goes out to the girl who doesn’t think she’s enough… To the girl who believes a guy defines who she is… To the girl who thinks she doesn’t have a right to move on and be happy…

You have every right to leave a bad situation, you have every right to feel your emotions and you have every right to be happy…