“But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,’ declares the LORD” – Jeremiah 30:17

When you dive into a pool you allow yourself to be submerged by water. Well when you get sick your body submerges itself in many different thoughts.

My thoughts became Stress, Anxiety & Depression.

Most of you reading this blog know me, and you might have not noticed me battling with it. Maybe none of you knew. Being a leader, a child of a leader and a youth you’d think “She’s got it all together”. Well, sorry to burst your bubble. I don’t have it all together, I make mistakes (plenty of them), I’m not always feeling 100% up to par and i do get exhausted sometimes too.

Stress….

Did you know, that when you’re stressed it’s actually a good thing. It’s basically a challenge. It all depends on how you take that challenge and come above it. Yeah, that’s not what happened to me. I wish I could say I conquered it like a pro! I was beast! But no I was not Beast, I did not conquer, I literally just shut down. I got so stressed that I literally stopped doing things…. I waved my flag and gave up.

Anxiety…

After hearing how bad my health could get, man did I struggle. When Anxiety takes over your life you feel as if you’re body is still on earth but your mind and soul are in two different places at the same time. I started to loose the feeling of what was real and what was fake. I was literally caught in a spiritual battle of letting myself go and fighting and continue fighting until I got control of my thoughts. My anxiety would trigger in every place. When I would see my friends, when I would go to church, when I would be alone, when I worked. I lost a touch of my humanity at that moment.

Depression…

You hear about depression all the time. BUT until you actually go through it you will never know what its like. It’s not something you want to go through. Trust me… When depression hits you, all you want is to go into a hole and never come out. You don’t want to be bothered, you don’t want friends, you don’t want to spend time with your family, you want to forget about God. Going through depressions SUCKS, but going through depression alone is even worse.

God…

So remember in the previous story I said something about studying. Well I was fortunate that while I was going through this time in my life or the Season as I like to call it. I started to study. Now growing up in a church there’s always something that stays with you. Now the thing that stuck with me was “We were meant to live for so much more” yes it’s a Switchfoot song. That stuck with me personally. God was telling me in that moment that no matter how bad it gets you can push further and get up and still be redeemed.

You are not alone, worthless nor are you no one. YOU Matter. So get up and walk outside. Smell the fresh air and PUSH! Don’t ever think you cannot get through it. Yes, yes you can.

If you or someone you know is battling with this or need someone to talk to email me in the contact page or get in contact with your local youth leaders or click this link. https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

If you want to contact someone else there are phone numbers to Youth Leaders who can help you. Please Contact someone and allow them to help you.

1.) Rev. Jonathan Vazquez – 619-508-9973 – Pastor

2.) Keila Garcia – 954-918-7726 – Youth Leader

3.) Daniel Dominguez – 954-245-5010 – Counselor

4.) Ambar Martinez – 954-461-0262 – Youth Leader

5.) Esther Vazquez – 619-888-8819 – Pastor

6.) Kenfis Tormes – 305-301-4581 – Psychologist