Sick Beginnings

In order to understand where I am now, you need to understand how I got there in the first place.

It probably doesn’t make sense to you, but that’s what makes this beautiful.

You see about a year ago I was in a state of mind that I could conquer the world and anything that came my way I would defeat it. Now be careful with what you wish for because that was not the case.

Where does it all Begin?

A little background for you all,

I’ve always struggled with being over weight, now those who know me think “you look good for your size”, “what are you talking about??” or “How could you say that?”, well guys YES I’ve struggled with my weight. I went from being a size 2 or 4 to a size 8 to 12 in a matter of two years. Now something that doesn’t help is that I am also Asthmatic. Yay me! *Insert Sarcastic Vibes*

Back to the story,

Now that you know I struggle with Asthma, on March 20th, 2018 that was a bad day. I remember it clear as day…… Walking into the hospital telling them I can’t breathe, getting three asthma treatments, three steroid pills, blood test, making you pee in a cup in order for them to tell you your not pregnant, having a doctor come in check up on you asking you whats wrong, explaining your symptoms, falling asleep in the ER room because you feel helpless beyond belief to the point that you can’t move. Yeah, welcome to my world every 5 months.

After that day I got prescriptions for the rest of the week and the next day went back to work as if nothing had happened. This was all on a Tuesday. Wednesday seemed pretty normal except for the steroid pills I had in my system and the asthma treatments I’ve been doing every four hours consistently….

Thursday rolled around and I was not feeling well again, why didn’t I feel well? This is a normal thing in my life. Well, not really because I went to the hospital again and my baby brother Thank God for him because he drove me. Went in and the doctor flat out told me “you need to loose weight or you’ll start to have problems with your health, more than what you are struggling with now”

Fun! I can joke about it now but at the time it was all dark for me. You know how they say your life flashes before your eyes when you get into an accident, you see this white light and they always say “don’t go into the Light”. Something similar happened, I didn’t see the white light but I did see my life. I never imagined how my dad would react to a health scare or who would take care of mom if something happened to me. How my sister would continue on if she didn’t have me to push her? Who would my brother have to bother if not me? Would my uncle have anyone to talk to if I left? Would grandma be able to go on without her favorite Granddaughter? (LOL) How would my baby cousin be if I wasn’t around? You see our life has an effect on everyone…… Not Just US…..

So? What did I do?

First, I went on a Social Media break……… You might be asking yourself “HOW COULD YOU???” Easy… Go on Facebook and Deactivate. It’s more liberating than you think. Instagram I deactivated as well…. Even Snapchat….

Next, I started to cut down on the junk, bread, fast food, candy (Uff that one hurt) and the pop. Hard is an understatement. But it worked. I lost 30 pounds in a matter of 5-6 months.

Last, since I had lots of free time thanks to my new social media free schedule. I got my favorite books, my favorite study Bible tools and started studying. You see I left this for last because at the time I was fighting with God, “Why am I the one getting sick?” “Why me?” It funny how in the good its all “Thank You Big G!” But in the bad it’s “WHY ME?” Well, you’ll see how I coped, healed & God restored.

For Now just remember

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